Always being someone’s second best, their “not quite good enough” girl is the worst feeling in the world.
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THEORIES ABOUT THE UNIVERSE
I am trying to see things in perspective.
My dog wants a bite of my peanut butter
chocolate chip bagel. I know she cannot
have this, because chocolate makes dogs
very sick. My dog does not understand this.
She pouts and wraps herself around my leg
like a scarf and purrs and tries to convince me
to give her just a tiny bit. When I do not give in,
she eventually gives up and lays in the corner,
under the piano, drooping and sad. I hope the
universe has my best interest in mind like I have
my dogs. When I want something with my whole
being, and the universe withholds it from me,
I hope the universe thinks to herself: “Silly girl.
She thinks this is what she wants, but she
does not understand how it will hurt.
Ah yes back to the good old lonely days.
"who the fuck falls in love at 16 i have never felt this way about a person my love for you inhales me, sets fire to me, you are wading in my crimson blood and you taste so so sweet (honey, syrup, sometimes strawberries) on my tongue, i learn eight hours worth of goddamn high school classes each day and yet all i can be utterly and wholly sure of is that my love for you is more certain than the rising of the sun every morning, than death; i love you with the rounded teeth in my gums, the ringed tubes that lace my mouth to my stomach and lungs, i love you with the freckles on my arms, knees, shoulders, and with the papery darkness that my eyelids slide into place, i would die for you, with you, because of you, i love you, forever and with all of these ridiculous 16 (four squared, the square root of two hundred and fifty six) years i love you"
j.s.j (via superbist)
i submitted this as a poem to a school competition and it won first place :)
(please dont change the source or quote this without crediting me… i doubt anyone would but just dont)
(via acongojado)
"I am figuring out which parts of my personality are mine and which ones I created to please you."
(via haex)
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